Sunday, June 03, 2007

crazy... crazy for feeling..


God damn I might need to go see a doctor.

I get these weird pains or pressures in my back, they don't really hurt, they are just uncomfortable.

Then at times, they are followed by phantom memories, amalgamations of random chemical impressions in my brain that sort of just come out at once. It usually takes me a minute or two to think about the "flash" and realize that there is no good reason why I should remember something like that. Then I loose it.

I assume they are connected. Since the physical sensation and the jumbled memories happen about at the same time. Perhaps it is a sort of "bio-feedback" from misfiring nerves? then when it gets back to my brain and fires the wrong areas, my brain tries to reassemble the thoughts in a cognative narrative, much like a waking dream.

It is a little scary at times, trying to figure out how, where, and why you remember these things. Then you figure it out only a few moments later, and sort of disassemble the parts back to the proper places.

My memory is going to hell too. I am way too young for this shit.

(I am going to try to remember the "randoms" and write them down when I can. They fade fast.. but every one left me with the impression that it was wacky and entertaining. Might make good story fodder.)

2 comments:

FRY! (english idiot) said...

Ive been getting that alot over the last few days but like scent memories...i have not had this in a while but over the last 3-4 days i keep smelling things that bring out memories of days in primary school or my old friends house....weird shit i aint thought about in ages....but like 10 or more times....and i aint had these scent induced memory/nostalgia bursts in years.

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wbm said...

I am way too young for this shit.

I know of which you speak.